I can't believe that I've had a beautiful baby boy. My Stanley is going to be so happy. Having this baby will only bring us closer together, I just know it will! I can't describe the amount of love that I have for him. I've never loved someone so much in my entire life. My heart is all jittery just thinking about him. Oh my I can't believe that I'm crying, how very silly of me.
Blanche! My beautiful sister is going to be so happy for me. After looking at my precious baby he has her eyes, yes he does! Oh my that will make Blanche so happy. But... what if she isn't happy? What if this baby will make her resent me even more for leaving Belle Reve and starting a new life without her. What if she thinks that this baby is the thing that will make me lose ties with Belle Reve? I've had a baby and I'm married whereas Blanche, my poor baby is still broken hearted about that boy. What if she starts to hate me? No... I can't think like that, she's my sister and she loves me and I love her so dearly, of course she won't react like that. How could i think that. My Blanche is an Aunt now, there's no way she won't be happy for me.
I can't wait to see them both, I feel so claustrophobic begin stuck in this tiny little room. It's awful! I know I shouldn't but I can't help but think that they might of had a fight while I was gone. It's silly of me but I know that Stanley gets angry easily and when he's angry nobody can control him but me, he's got an awful temper. What if Blanche lashes out on him. She doesn't understand how much I love him. She thinks that he's "controlling me". What if she finally calls him out on it? I know that she's just trying to protect me, of course, she's my big sister! But she just doesn't understand that I can't live without him. He's my everything, my whole entire world. I hope that nothing bad has happened. After the whole issue with the papers they both seem to have settled their differences. I just have to have faith that they both behave themselves. I've only been gone a little while I'm sure everything is just fine...
Blanche! My beautiful sister is going to be so happy for me. After looking at my precious baby he has her eyes, yes he does! Oh my that will make Blanche so happy. But... what if she isn't happy? What if this baby will make her resent me even more for leaving Belle Reve and starting a new life without her. What if she thinks that this baby is the thing that will make me lose ties with Belle Reve? I've had a baby and I'm married whereas Blanche, my poor baby is still broken hearted about that boy. What if she starts to hate me? No... I can't think like that, she's my sister and she loves me and I love her so dearly, of course she won't react like that. How could i think that. My Blanche is an Aunt now, there's no way she won't be happy for me.
I can't wait to see them both, I feel so claustrophobic begin stuck in this tiny little room. It's awful! I know I shouldn't but I can't help but think that they might of had a fight while I was gone. It's silly of me but I know that Stanley gets angry easily and when he's angry nobody can control him but me, he's got an awful temper. What if Blanche lashes out on him. She doesn't understand how much I love him. She thinks that he's "controlling me". What if she finally calls him out on it? I know that she's just trying to protect me, of course, she's my big sister! But she just doesn't understand that I can't live without him. He's my everything, my whole entire world. I hope that nothing bad has happened. After the whole issue with the papers they both seem to have settled their differences. I just have to have faith that they both behave themselves. I've only been gone a little while I'm sure everything is just fine...